This is entry 100, and this is the right moment to sum up my search with a role model. Dorine and André Gorz are the modern Baucis and Philemon.
They were together for nearly 60 years, and loved each other so much, that he could no bear to survive his beloved Dorine, so they ended their lives together. They were happy without having children.
She was his one and only. Even though I cannot know it I am convinced, that they created a bond of intrinsic commitment when they got involved, that most probably it has never even occurred to him to cheat on her nor to impose a harem of ex-partners upon her.
They are the role model of a couple attached to each other by a truly human bond of profound quality.
I wished I could find a precious man like André Gorz. There is enough left of life to share some years of the same kind of a deep bond as they did.
Such a man is out there somewhere and he is craving to find me as much as I am craving to find him. But were is he? How can we find each other?
Compared with André Gorz, I cannot help but to perceive all those pseudo-progressive men, who admit being promiscuous as if this were human decency, as trash and riffraff. They are animals void of the precious quality of true humanity, that I see in André Gorz's bond with Dorine.