The Distorted Memory of the Emotional Moron
Some emotional morons seem to have a very specific distortion of their memory. They store every blame, grudge and devaluation of a woman in their memory as carved in stone for eternity. But they store the explanation and information in favor and defense of the woman as if written with chalk on a slate, that gets washed off by the next rain. She has no chance to ever counterbalance his wrong perception and opinion of her, which gets from bad to worse as a consequence of the distorted memory.
When a woman experiences something distressing, some disappointment, something hurting, no matter if caused by the emotional moron himself or by someone else, and he does not understand, what is going on, he automatically jumps to the conclusion, that she is a drama queen, hysterical, flawed.
As an emotional moron, he is oblivious, that someone can experience anything, which he does not know of or which he would not be affected by at all. In his simple mind, what does not exist for him, cannot exist for her. An emotional moron not only lacks empathy, but he lacks any knowledge of the fact, that other people have very real and valid feelings and experiences, even though he himself has never even heard of them and they are beyond his imagination. He is completely oblivious, that he cannot evaluate other people's behavior without sufficient information about their invisible emotional reality, and this information can only be obtained by asking for and listening to their introspection.
Instead, he believes in his wrong assumptions based entirely on observations. As a result, he observes the woman's incomprehensible distress without the shade of a doubt as an indication of her flaws and he stores this observation and interpretation in his permanent unmodifiable memory. It just does not even occur to him to wonder, what really is the matter with her, let alone ask her a respectful question about her subjective experience.
The woman wants a relationship to be a bonded intrinsic commitment based upon sharing the innermost feelings and understanding each other. When she gets aware of his unfavorable evaluation of her distress, she makes efforts to explain to him everything she has experienced, felt and thought, in the hope to gain his understanding and his appreciation, that her distress was an appropriate reaction to her experience.
Being an emotional moron void of any understanding about intrinsic commitment and such abstract needs of her, he has no clue, why she is so anxious and driven to explain herself to him, why it is important to her at all.
If he finds no way to avoid it, he sometimes does listen with reluctance, he even tells her that he has understood her explanation and her introspection.
But the next time, when he finds a new blame to put on her, when he starts another rant about his new and all his already accumulated grudges and blames, he is back at repeating his original claim of her being a hysterical drama queen, just as if she had never attempted to make him understand her feelings and her reality. His grudges and blames accumulate, her explanations disappear without any effect.
She might even write her explanations down, print them and hand them over to him to read. This way she wants to give him a chance to make an attempt at his own speed, ease and convenience to understand her better. It is all futile. There is no way to influence him. Her distress in previous episodes will forever be in his mind as an indication of her being flawed, and he will again and again repeat this to her.
The question remains, why then did he claim at one moment to have understood? There are several possibilities, and they are probably all of them sometimes valid.
1. He temporarily understands but does not store this in his memory but forgets it immediately or very soon as if she has never said anything.
2. He pretends to have understood, because he is not at all interested in her explanations, he is bored and wants to end the discussion.
3. As a narcissist, he appreciates every indication allowing him to believe in her being flawed, but her explanation is not welcome, so he only pretends to listen and to have understood.
4. His ability of abstract thinking and of understanding mature emotions is so impaired, that he is unable to understand her explanations, but does not admit it. He only pretends to have understood.
5. He does not take her for serious or does not trust her to tell the truth. He believes his own interpretation of his observations more than he believes her introspection and explanation. He pretends to have understood, because he did not value her enough to listen.
This accumulation of unfavorable interpretation of more and more instances of her behavior has a very detrimental long term effect upon the relationship. Events, that are incomprehensible only to an emotional moron and make the woman appear in an unfavorable light, happen in every relationship and cannot be avoided. The longer this goes on, the more he devalues her, and she has no chance of stop this process.
She has no influence on what the emotional moron thinks of her and as a consequence, she also has no influence, how he treats her. Since his opinion of her determines how he treats her, devaluing her serves to him as his justification for domination and bullying. Along with the accumulation of grudges and devaluation, his treatment of her deteriorates.
Every once in a while, when something pushes his hostility and anger button, he starts to declaim his whole database of blames and grudges like pouring a flood of mental diarrhea over the woman. It is a known psychological fact used in commercials, that the more often something is repeated, the more people start to accept it as true. The emotional moron obviously believes, that by repeating his claim of her alleged flaws often enough, she will finally agree to be flawed. But as long as the woman's self-esteem remains undamaged, his repetition of his same old grudges and blames is just a painful nuisance for her and the harm done by it is indirect. His ranting about her deficiency has the effect of convincing himself, and with every of his repetitions, he believes more in her flaws.
Some emotional morons seem to have a very specific distortion of their memory. They store every blame, grudge and devaluation of a woman in their memory as carved in stone for eternity. But they store the explanation and information in favor and defense of the woman as if written with chalk on a slate, that gets washed off by the next rain. She has no chance to ever counterbalance his wrong perception and opinion of her, which gets from bad to worse as a consequence of the distorted memory.
When a woman experiences something distressing, some disappointment, something hurting, no matter if caused by the emotional moron himself or by someone else, and he does not understand, what is going on, he automatically jumps to the conclusion, that she is a drama queen, hysterical, flawed.
As an emotional moron, he is oblivious, that someone can experience anything, which he does not know of or which he would not be affected by at all. In his simple mind, what does not exist for him, cannot exist for her. An emotional moron not only lacks empathy, but he lacks any knowledge of the fact, that other people have very real and valid feelings and experiences, even though he himself has never even heard of them and they are beyond his imagination. He is completely oblivious, that he cannot evaluate other people's behavior without sufficient information about their invisible emotional reality, and this information can only be obtained by asking for and listening to their introspection.
Instead, he believes in his wrong assumptions based entirely on observations. As a result, he observes the woman's incomprehensible distress without the shade of a doubt as an indication of her flaws and he stores this observation and interpretation in his permanent unmodifiable memory. It just does not even occur to him to wonder, what really is the matter with her, let alone ask her a respectful question about her subjective experience.
The woman wants a relationship to be a bonded intrinsic commitment based upon sharing the innermost feelings and understanding each other. When she gets aware of his unfavorable evaluation of her distress, she makes efforts to explain to him everything she has experienced, felt and thought, in the hope to gain his understanding and his appreciation, that her distress was an appropriate reaction to her experience.
Being an emotional moron void of any understanding about intrinsic commitment and such abstract needs of her, he has no clue, why she is so anxious and driven to explain herself to him, why it is important to her at all.
If he finds no way to avoid it, he sometimes does listen with reluctance, he even tells her that he has understood her explanation and her introspection.
But the next time, when he finds a new blame to put on her, when he starts another rant about his new and all his already accumulated grudges and blames, he is back at repeating his original claim of her being a hysterical drama queen, just as if she had never attempted to make him understand her feelings and her reality. His grudges and blames accumulate, her explanations disappear without any effect.
She might even write her explanations down, print them and hand them over to him to read. This way she wants to give him a chance to make an attempt at his own speed, ease and convenience to understand her better. It is all futile. There is no way to influence him. Her distress in previous episodes will forever be in his mind as an indication of her being flawed, and he will again and again repeat this to her.
The question remains, why then did he claim at one moment to have understood? There are several possibilities, and they are probably all of them sometimes valid.
1. He temporarily understands but does not store this in his memory but forgets it immediately or very soon as if she has never said anything.
2. He pretends to have understood, because he is not at all interested in her explanations, he is bored and wants to end the discussion.
3. As a narcissist, he appreciates every indication allowing him to believe in her being flawed, but her explanation is not welcome, so he only pretends to listen and to have understood.
4. His ability of abstract thinking and of understanding mature emotions is so impaired, that he is unable to understand her explanations, but does not admit it. He only pretends to have understood.
5. He does not take her for serious or does not trust her to tell the truth. He believes his own interpretation of his observations more than he believes her introspection and explanation. He pretends to have understood, because he did not value her enough to listen.
This accumulation of unfavorable interpretation of more and more instances of her behavior has a very detrimental long term effect upon the relationship. Events, that are incomprehensible only to an emotional moron and make the woman appear in an unfavorable light, happen in every relationship and cannot be avoided. The longer this goes on, the more he devalues her, and she has no chance of stop this process.
She has no influence on what the emotional moron thinks of her and as a consequence, she also has no influence, how he treats her. Since his opinion of her determines how he treats her, devaluing her serves to him as his justification for domination and bullying. Along with the accumulation of grudges and devaluation, his treatment of her deteriorates.
Every once in a while, when something pushes his hostility and anger button, he starts to declaim his whole database of blames and grudges like pouring a flood of mental diarrhea over the woman. It is a known psychological fact used in commercials, that the more often something is repeated, the more people start to accept it as true. The emotional moron obviously believes, that by repeating his claim of her alleged flaws often enough, she will finally agree to be flawed. But as long as the woman's self-esteem remains undamaged, his repetition of his same old grudges and blames is just a painful nuisance for her and the harm done by it is indirect. His ranting about her deficiency has the effect of convincing himself, and with every of his repetitions, he believes more in her flaws.
